its a curious thing, fear.
fear and worry.

saps happiness away. things go awry. peoples hearts melt.
being afraid, being defeated.

Joshua fell face down in the dust. Thomas doubted.
Moses had to face the ungrateful Israelite masses. Peter denied Him,
three times. Job despaired, King David cried out to God.

sometimes things didnt look like they would go right.
Eating the last morsel of cake from a starving widow and her son./
Jesus seeming not to care till Lazarus died.
The land of milk and honey inhabited by undefeatable Giants.

always a way out.

when things looked bleak, God worked a miracle./

randome. or not, typetypetyping anything i think./

last man standing.

looking for the thing that fills the emptiness, You.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASTOR LIA!!
hahahahs bdae celebrations L.I.A 2.0 were AWESOME!!

sadd the chocolate friands i baked
were more like chocolate rock-hard
munchies that i didnt give Pastor in the end...
but i did shake Pastors hand when we wished her Happy Birthday!

the performances and videos were SUPER FUNNY XD
and the heart and effort put in it were tremendous
oh me goodness feel really blessed to be in HoGc 2.0
and having such great CG mates (brethren, yo)
*Daniel Goh our worship leader! in rapper mode! LOL* XD
laughed like crazy at the post productions team videos
and the leaders indian dances and songs!

and best of all was when we prayed and sang Chinese worship songs
and Matt Redmanns The Heart Of Worship
i cant even begin to describe how powerful that was-

today s celebrations for Pastor Lia really opened my eyes
to how much she had sacrificed and built HoGc with Pastor How
feel really touched to see her and Rinah together!

Rinah is super cute!! any normal toddler would have cracked
under so much pressure but she takes it well in her stride hahahs

MY PASTORS ARE THE BEST!! ^^
Lord please bless them in health and wealth and everything else-
HoGc 2.0!

really had a great worship session yesterday-
just being able to sing praise songs with the CG
and feel Gods presence again in my heart..
honestly the past week has not been easy-
not just in terms of workload and time management
but obstacles in my relationships with people...

am thankful for the stress on my friendships in school
i know God wants to put me through this test because
i myself know i put way too much trust in my
relationships with people...ultimately i know thats just
asking for disappointment because our expectations
for people will always fail... the key point is what you
learn from it, and whether you re still able to stick
to what you believed in from the start.

think i learnt somethingugly about myself too from this
period, though duh im not gonna say it hahahas
really thankful for last nights worship session and
fellowship with the CG people, Samanthas preaching
Picnic at the al frescos,...really i spend too little
time with my spiritual family sometimes,
though im thankful that they take me for who i am
cuz most of the time im MIA hahahs

Lord im amazed
amazed at myself
amazed at You
Your blessings are amazing!!

My Grade 7 Passed!
My GP is a Grade C!!
I passed Three H2 and Two H1 (tts considered to be only
13.4 percent of the cohort!)
Im secure in myself!
I have a great family, great friends, and a awesome life! ^^

Thank You Lord!
i pray that i will be genuine and give my best in all that i do,
amen!

really saw what God could do for me yesterday...

previously i would have been a messed up smut right
before the performance and probably majorly turned it
into a nightmare-bizzare reality mixture

the dragon tangling, and Lord knows a million other
things that could go horribly wrong...

but instead all i could feel was a sense of assurance
knowing that God would fulfil His promise, and He did! ^^
Synergy 2008 was a success! ^^ hahahs thanks to the Pugi
Society Dragon Dance!
those edgy last hours of bolted dinner, missing equipment
and persona, hearty slaps on the back and 'dont-stress-ah lynn's XD
pulled through into a magnifique 5 minute performance!

cant describe how relieved i felt and so thankful for those
calls from the audience, my friends calling my name and
praising the performance...

also really grateful for the B i got in PW (a most pleasant shock)

hahahas i wanna fight bigger wars now-
not just to do my best in a school performance, but bigger battles

fighting against my insecurities of Studies (still working the kinks in
Chemistry and Math out..)
i needed that wake-up call so bad...
fighting for causes i know are worthy to be fought...
and not against the wrong ones...
even fighting myself!

a wise friend once told me-

your biggest obstacle is actually Yourself.

ATTACK! ^^
will we be victorious?